-->>




..it's here ..!! F.H.E.'s long awaited follow up to the classic reoffering of TMNT season 1 last year.. !!




But for the fisrt time .. all 13 eps are available in 1 fine package !!
..no B.S. !!



Crooked Ninja Turtles,Incredible Shrinking ones,Pastey White Baxter Stockman that 'flys',The Eye of Sarnath,REX-1,Punk Frogs,Human Splinter,Channel 6 cat woman,and the return of the Technodrome.





It's Krang's lucky 13.. available for 15 bucks and cheaper !! (I got mine for about $9.00 !! Now let's get crackin' on Season 3 !!




-- From Mr.B at official TMNT d0t c0m..




"Last minute convention notice (sorry - we're not all that organized when it comes to cons). Peter Laird, Michael Dooney, Dan Berger and Jim Lawson (Eric Talbot had to cancel due to family commitments) will be appearing this Sunday, May 1, at the Comic Book Show at the Nashua, New Hampshire Holiday Inn.(--click here for info ,~tOkK)..




-- ..4Kids TV has a poll for favorite show up on their site, and the TMNT aren't winning! Get on over there and vote, pollsters! "(--click here for 4K!ds TV Poll Page)




-- And don't forget,New York TMNT Fans ::





" on APRIL 29TH, come and join the festivities at the TMNT SHELLRIFIC IN-STORE EVENT!.." at Toys R' Us Times Square !!




From 3:00 - 3:30 PM, you'll have a chance to see a live performance of the Supreme Green Fightin' Machines using their Ninjitsu skills, learn Turtles trivia, and answer questions for a chance to win some cool prizes!




PLUS... from 4:00 - 4:30 and 5:00 - 5:30 PM, have your photo taken with the Turtles as a special keepsake!




So stop by Toys "R" Us Times Square for a day of Turtles!
Cowabunga!




Visit www.ToysrusTimesSquare.com or call the Special Events hotline at (646) 366-8855 for more information.




..that's tommorrow !! If you can't make it there don't make it anywhere's,New York !! It's up ta you !! Get yir tennies on n' marathon to the front of the Turtle line now !!




..>v<

-->>




What the TMNT Cartoon lacks in the way of a tie-in comic book more than makes up for it on the book racks at your fave Barnes & Noble n' book shoppes everywhere !! Simon Spotlight (--Simon's TMNT list starts here) has a whole turtle-slop fest of books already out n' a buch more ready for your reading pleasure !!




The first novel 'Shadows Over ChinaTown' features an all new story by Mirage Faithful Steve Murphy and tight full-colour illustrations former Dream Wave scribe scribbler :Patrick
Spaziante !!




April befriends a fellow antique dealer : Wei Yang. However Wei Yang has run afoul n' a-FOOT of the Purple Dragons as they extort him for "protection" Money. April and the TMNT send Raph to Chinatown to watch over the old man and his shoppe. But where there's trouble with Purple Dragon's there's bound to be trouble far more sinister (and Shredder-ie). And in this case something magically sinister !!




.. a great quick read for both young and young at heart TMNT fans ..commin' at ya with all the bookmarks n' spikes this silly sinister-snapper can reccommend !!




(And when all ya gots is spikes.. you get holes in all yir books n' it takes ya awhile to figger out what's really givin' your books all them holes.. n' ain't the cock roaches,buddy !!)




-- Direct news from Mr.B and the TMNT offical slush-site :




"..We've been getting a lot of requests for Playmates Toys' release schedule, so here it is as it stands today (bear in mind that things often change):




* Currently scheduled for June release:




1) Gen




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toys/2005/gen/gen.html




2) Feudal Shredder




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/figures12.jpg




3) Robo Huntin' Turtles




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toys/2005/robohunter/robohunter.html




* Currently slated for release in mid to late July:




1) Mutant Copter




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/monsters04.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/monsters05.jpg




2) Sour Power Mutant Maker
http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/monsters02.jpg




3) Sewer Spewer




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/vehicledisplay03.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/vehicledisplay05.jpg




4) Stealth FX Weapons (no pix available)




5) Combat Warriors (I'm not sure what these are, I assume TMNT variants)




6) Combat Cruisers (The packaging at Toy Fair had the figs in the box with the bike, but perhaps they'll be sold separately - see above. Time will tell)




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/trikes01.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/trikes02.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/trikes03.jpg





7) Monster Trappers




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toys/2004/monsterhunter/monster.html




8) M.E.C.H. Wrekkers




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mechs01.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mechs02.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mechs03.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mechs04.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mechs05.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mechs06.jpg




* Currently scheduled for September release:




1) Mystic Fury TMNT




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mysticdon.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mysticleo.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mysticmike.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/mysticraph.jpg




2) Karai




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/figures04.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/figures14.jpg




http://www.ninjaturtles.com/toyfair2005/figures21.jpg





3) Minnetonka Mutant (toy based on a contest run by Playmates Toys - a roach-like mutant that features the face of the contest winner. No pix available, sorry.)




That's the scoop for now."




..n' that's all the floop n' figure flop that's fit ta poop..

.. i'm pooped.. see ya !!




..>v<

-->>..ah ..




it's once again time for the popular and contraversial Soap-opera that is ::




MIKEY's TMNT !!




..in today'e episode we have part 3,015 entitled..




"The Schizo Snapper Once Again Makes an Ass of Himself n' Hurts his Friend's Feelin's Cuz He's Such an Heel.."




..(sorry,Mandy..)..




..>v<

Courtesy info c/o the Official TMNT d0t com & Machias B.




.."What you see below is the front cover to a special limited edition (3000 copies) of the first issue of TMNT which will be available for the first time at the Portsmouth, NH comic con on May 22 of this year (go to --(Click here).. for more information).





.. What is new about this reprint is that I have retoned and relettered it, as part of a long-term effort to "remaster" all of the old issues of TMNT. There is also an essay by Ralph DiBernardo, who -- 21 years ago -- produced the Portsmouth Minicon at which Kevin and I premiered the first issue of the TMNT. .."




.. more n' pleanty of incentive ta hop over there if your in the Northwest neck !! Ya miss this you'll wanna ring yir own neck !!




..>v<

-->>




..life's a b7tch n' then ya fly ..
..start checkin' your dollar stores and Walley-marts....the TMNT mini collection gets 4 new Turtles to add to the flyin' dockets.. and at just under 2 bucks a pop.. every lil' kid can skip on the corn flakes n' spend his money on these neat lil' Paratroops.. (sans the Koopas!!). Toss 'em up outside n' watch your Turtle gently & gracefully float down to the ninja ground to kick some F00T pah-toot !! (Hey.. don' take much to impress this simple minded snapper!!)




..tryin'' up loose ends..









..tOkK is tacklin' alot of bull crap lately.. sorry if i let the news slip here and there. My approach is to get even the teeniest bits of info even on a mundane or most awsome level when it come to your great GREEN GUYS..alas:
..yir snapper buddy is only inhuman so.. months ago i made a promise Steve Murphy editor on TALES and one of the big guys at Mirage ..i beleive in good causes..n' i do my best to keep my promises.. so ..:




..as reported in TALES of TMNT # 8::
Congrats to Melinda (KAZ) on naming the F-104 Wood Turtle !!





..the Turtle girl is named : Akemi (bright and beautiful in Japanese ..)
..the name the turtle contest is over (well maybe she needs a middle name..) but the Wood Turtle project still goes on.Donations can be made to :




The University of Massachusetts and sent to ::




Paul Sievert,Assistant Unit Leader- Wildlife.USGS,Massachusetts Cooperative Fish & Wildlife Research Unit Department of of Natural Resources Conservation




319 Holdsworth Hall.University of Massachusetts Amherst




Amherst,MA 01003-4220




..i'm doin' my best,folks.. things have been lookin' grim and grimmer..(so hard not to grimace.. my attention span is as short as my spikes are long.. (gee that was long winded..)..but i'll keep punchin' along with all the TMNT news that's used n' abused the best i can. ..




Chowderbunga, Meatballs !! (Oi-vey.. dat's deffly not Kosher !! )
..>v<

-->>



..older news.. (tOkK's had his brain n' his spikes in a bundle lately..sorry)..but in cased you missed it
..T.N.I has really great shots of Karai's first ever fig --start clickin' right here.. here !! Me o' My !!




Tip offs from Mr.B and official TMNT d0t com's !!::




--"PRESS RELEASE: In celebration of McDonald's 50th Anniversary, they are creating a one-of-a-kind historical display in their new restaurant at Clark and Ontario Streets in Chicago, IL. The permanent display will feature memorabilia, photos, and video clips of cultural and historical significance from the 1950s to the present.The display will include several Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle/ Mirage Studios licensed items representing the 1980s, including Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles figures set (Donatello, Michelangelo, Leonardo, & Raphael), Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles stickers and an assortment of TMNT buttons. The 50th Anniversary McDonald's opens to the public on April 15th, 2005.




--"KOL (Aol's Kids division ~tOkK)is sponsoring a 17 city mall tour that the Turtles will be a part of, featuring signage and hand out give-a-ways. The signage promotes the Turtles' appearance on 4KIDS TV (see the image above). 4Kids will be giving out Turtles products at the tour appearances.




The mall tour is called "The Kids Time Extreme Mall Tour” (“KTMT”).
KOL is a Premiere Sponsor of the KTMT (AOL is also the Exclusive Online Partner of the Mall Tour) which is scheduled to appear in 17 shopping malls throughout the country and will feature kid friendly and educational activities. KTMT estimates 700,000 individuals will attend the Mall Tour (kids + parents).




KOL is promoting the Mall Tour via local TV and radio ads, inclusion in the Sports Illustrated for Kids Magazine, KTMT banners, posters, flyers, signage and other promotional materials that place the KOL logo, including food court table tents, mall signage, pamphlets, brochures, and stage decorations. Check out the schedule below and if you live in the area that the tour is passing through, keep your ear to the ground to find out where it will be taking place - and then get down to the mall to score some Turtles stuff!




"The Kids Time Extreme Mall Tour" Dates & Tour Cities




APRIL 16-17: MALL OF AMERICA, MN




APRIL 30-MAY 1: RIVERTOWN CROSSING, MI




MAY 14-15: NATICK MALL, MA




JUNE 4-5: NEWPORT MALL, NJ




JUNE 11-12: ST. CHARLES, MD




JULY 9-10: DETROIT, MI




JULY 30-31: GREENWOOD, IND.




AUG 6-7: CUMBERLAND MALL, GA




AUG 20-21: TYRON SQUARE, FL




SEPT 10-11: WOODLAND, TX




SEPT 24-25: NORTHEAST MALL, TX




OCT 8-9: PARK PLACE MALL, AZ




OCT 15-16: SW PLAZA, CO




OCT 22-23: BURBANK, CA




NOV 5-6: NEW PARK MALL, CA




NOV 12-13: GOLF MILL, IL.



"




.. start gettin' out yir dayplanners n' calenders..this is th' biggest thing to hit the mall scince Sanny Clause !! oii!!

..>v<

-->>




..This will make ya jump n' shout !!


"Gamerz-Edge Exclusive: Interview with Kevin Munroe" ..




..a special thanks to Steve ..the b0ss at Gamerz-Edge for the super cool,super revealin'interview with Kevin Munroe the lead guy and TMNT CGI: Movie director for the next TMNT silver-screen outing ..all digital n' action packed !!




--AWSOME INTERVIEW IS JUST A CLICK AWAY..--startin' here.. ,my prickly lil' amigoes !!




..>v<

-->>




Ripped off Mr.B's offical TMNT page ..::




The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles have risen out of the sewers and are taking over their hometown of New York! Toys "R" Us Times Square will be rockin' when Donatello, Raphael, Michelangelo and Leonardo are blasting thru!




THE ENTIRE TMNT TOY LINE from Playmates Toys will be featured in their very own FEATURE SHOP the WHOLE MONTH OF APRIL!




AND, on APRIL 29TH, come and join the festivities at the TMNT SHELLRIFIC IN-STORE EVENT!




From 3:00 - 3:30 PM, you'll have a chance to see a live performance of the Supreme Green Fightin' Machines using their Ninjitsu skills, learn Turtles trivia, and answer questions for a chance to win some cool prizes!




PLUS... from 4:00 - 4:30 and 5:00 - 5:30 PM, have your photo taken with the Turtles as a special keepsake!




So stop by Toys "R" Us Times Square for a day of Turtles!
Cowabunga!




Visit www.ToysrusTimesSquare.com or call the Special Events hotline at (646) 366-8805 for more information.




..if you NYC TMNT guys n' girls are gonna go.. plan ahead and get there early !!

Click here for the direct Toys R' Us-NYC info link regarding this event !!




-- ..once Again :T-drome's N.Turtle..::




"IMDb (--click here for the info) has put up a new page for the upcoming TMNT movie under the title "TMNT:Immortal". See it here.
I have no idea on how official this name is, it could very well be completely temporary."

..>v<

-->>




--..well i have finally decided the !! terrible2z 5 1/6 Anniversary Colouring Contest Winners ..




..well ya see.. umm.. heh ..they were just all too good.




..before ya start thrwoin' pies..remember that this contest came with no gaurantees ..so ..while yeh i have chosen the 1st,2nd and 3rd palce winners..




.. i've decided that well ..there's a 4th,5th,6th ..ect. place winners as well.

That's right !! I'm buyin' ya all off !!




YOU ALL WIN THE CONTEST !!




Right now i am contactin the 1,2, & #3 winners.. then subsequently after that.. i'll confirm with the rest of y'all.. n' start sending out the prizes over the coming month !!




..ok..there ..i said my peace. Contraversial as my decison was.. it was still my decision. So.. umm.. yeh.. we're all winners here..




..so stick that in yir hat n' wear it. Yir special.. o' so very special.. just like tOkKie !!




I'll try to post the 1,2, & 3 winners before the end of the week.. !!




..>v<

-->>




..the Turtle stars are in alignment tonight !!




..Vivian Wu ('Princess Mitsu' of TMNT 3)sez..


"The bigger your dream is, the more you may achieve. So, just go ahead and never stop dreaming.."




..read more about the former famed rebel princess and the current exploits of one of tOkKa's favourte actresses and "Triumph of a `Shanghai Lady' .."




--..starting here from Shanghai Daily news





--..news via T-drome's N-turtle ..::




"Neil (also known as Shredder or Vegita-san) of Ninja Turtles Network recently did an interesting phone interview with James Avery, the original voice actor for the Shredder on the old TMNT show, so be sure to check that out(--click here..).."




..>v<

-->>




I noticed.. Simon and Schuster has more and more books stacked up in their growing TMNT library..!!
The up coming Leonardo !is a combo action plush/book .. open his shell for a real Cool Leo story !! Meant for the younger fan.. but still cool fun for any TMNT or Leo scribe !!





You can check all the Simon Spotlight titles and 'Leonardo' ! --starting here !!




..>v<

We got two updates this week.

We got some shocking things to go over, I gar-an-tee.

And of course, there is the aftermath.

Saw Sin City. Good? I thought so. Not a movie I'll pull out and watch every day on DVD, but I thought it was decent. It's dialouge seemed ripped from the comics, and cos of that, it didn't feel right all the time, and sometimes was laughable, but definately worth a look.

-->>




FORUM HACKED!!





O'no ..NOT AGAIN !!



















I can't beleive..









THIS IS HORRIBLE !!









terrible even !!


























..well


















..maybe with some ..






















&




plenty of rest and..









..it will feel better !!
..














..have a good April Fools !!












..>v<

-->>




--The !! terrible2z 5 1/6 Anniversary Gallery --starts here !!




..Remember the contest ends this weekend (April 1st)..i'll take entries until late into the early morning ..that's it. On April 2nd.. i gotta cut this thing off.


Some people still wanted more time but i gotta draw the line. I'm sorry. Hopefully by Monday or Tuesday .. April 3 and 4 .. i'll announce the winners. It's gonna be a crazy weekend so please allow me time to catch up with stuff ok !!





Thanks to all who entered !! It means so much !! 8)




..>v<

-->>




Any new TMNT movie news can make yir head spin..'specially the past few years..




But via Mikey ..courtesy of Howard Ho..

This article from --Gamerz Edge(click here ) ..goes ::





" Can't get enough of the Turtles? Kevin Munroe is going to give you more.




Imagi Services President and CEO Tom Gray announces the signing of Kevin Munroe to write and direct a new CGI-animated feature-length Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles film. The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles will ramp-up their booming revival with an animated film that will take advantage of new technology developed since the last Turtles film was released in 1993. Now in pre-production, the film is targeted for U.S. release in spring 2007.




Kevin Munroe has done extensive animation work during the last decade including video games, television series, and original comic books. He has worked in developing both the writing and design of animated projects for companies such as Disney, Warner Bros., Cartoon Network, WWE, Fox Kids, The Henson Company, Kids WB, Dark Horse Entertainment, IDW Publishing and Nickelodeon. Besides working in all aspects of production design and storyboarding on shows such as Nickelodeon’s “Hey Arnold!,” Munroe also created, wrote, produced, designed, and directed the CGI Christmas special “Donner” for ABC. His projects have been optioned by Walt Disney Feature Animation, Stan Winston Studios, and Brett Ratner’s Rat Entertainment in addition to co-writing another Imagi feature, Cat Tale. Munroe’s writer/director deal was negotiated by Gray and Alan Grodin of Weissmann, Wolff, et al., and Brent Weinstein of UTA.




The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles have enjoyed over 20 years of success in the U.S. and around the globe. Having shot to mainstream popularity with hit TV series, top grossing films, number one selling toys and enduring comic books, the property has generated over $6 billion in revenue. The first of the three live-action films grossed $135 million domestically, setting a seven-year box office record for independent releases. Today, the new hit TMNT TV series is in its third season with a fourth set to run through 2006 on 4Kids TV (formerly Fox Box) and the Cartoon Network in the U.S. In addition, the show is broadcast in major markets throughout Western and Eastern Europe, Asia, Latin America, Africa, the Middle East, and Australia.




The new TMNT film will be produced by Tom Gray (who guided the first Turtles trilogy through production) and Galen Walker of Imagi. Executive Producers are Francis Kao, Gary Richardson, Frederick Fierst, and Peter Laird, who co-created the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles with Kevin Eastman. The picture deal was conducted by Gray and Walker of Imagi, Grodin of Weissmann, Wolff, et al., Richardson of Mirage Licensing, and Fierst of Fierst, Pucci & Kinder.




We'll have more on the new Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles film as it becomes available! Stay tuned to Gamerz-Edge.




--Steve Schardein




..really big thanks, Howard !! This could really be it,gang.. !!

Stay Tooned is right..!! oii!!

..>v<

..Hope everyone had an AWSOME Easter !!

-->>




Tales of TMNT vol.2 #11 (Due in May !!)


by Murphy,Cohn, & Parsons::


'The Quick and the Dead'- Under normal circumstances,going up against a group of Foot Ninjas is no big deal for the team supreme. But what happens when the Foot's ninjitsu moves are faster than the eye can see ? Find out when Splinter and the four Turtles are attacked by three super-speed-enhanced Foot ninja in this take-no-prisnors, all-out action issoe in the now-monthly Tales of the TMNT !! (32 pgs. B/W,$3.25)
..nuff' hyphens in there ?? Gees..




--Like Nick said TMNT: Mutant Melee has hit PC,Xbox,and Gamecube.. leavin' Ps2 TMNT fans livid and IGN offering mixed reviews.. --starting here !!




-- I kinda am late with news on UGO's funny-bunny interview with Usagi Yojimbo's main man and master.. :Stan Sakai -- starting here ..!!




--..n' if ya can't get enuff Bunny's fer yir money .. know that easter's around the corner and special thanks to Cynlee for pointing out on 4 Kids' sneek Peek at next weeks TMNT when LEO,Gen, and Usagi team-up yet again..this time in Usagi's world of Ninja Bats,Dojos and evil Snakes in Kimonos.. (sushi ??) --starting here !!
..>v<

Just to note, check out TMNT: Mutant Melee. A typical action smashem bashem -Mortal Kombat-esqe arcade game, green team style and is decent. Check it out! And I bought mine for 19.99 at my local Toys-R-Us!!

In other news, yes dear friends, This is what happens where two guys are locked in a closet togehter.

Ooo the humanity of it all.

-->>




..m'kay..nuff cryin' ..so much to report..tOkK's gotta job to do::





-- TMNT Co-guru ,Kevin Eastman will be stopping in at the Big Apple Con in NYC on April 1-2..(--info starts here) ..no word on if he may be hooking up with four old compatriarcs from the underground.




-- Simon & Shuster has a couple more TMNT titles for 2005 on the docks..while they may be little kids fare.. any true TMNT fan may like em' ..the latest one i got is called 'Black Out' and is worth it just for the cool artwork by former Dream Waver Patrick Spaziante ..!!




New pix of the upcoming TMNT S.W.A.T. attack Pack start here.. including Raph,Bike and strange Foot Gunner variant..looks liek a Foot Tech in Foot Mech gear ..wow!!
--starting here..




--"Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Return to Xbox and GameCube


Konami's Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Mutant Melee has shipped to stores for Xbox, PC and GameCube.


Here's the publisher's description of this new party game --


Mutant Melee™ offers hours of bashing, crashing and trashing fun with more than 20 playable characters, a competitive Adventure mode, a ton of mini games and unlockable content. Gamers can play alone or with up to four friends and take on the role of their favorite Turtle, Casey Jones™, April O’Neil™, Master Splinter™ and even the villainous Shredder™ in one of two different modes – Adventure or Melee.


Turtle fans will find a shell full of mini games and extra content in TMNT™: Mutant Melee™. Gamers can team up with friends to play modes such as King of the Hill, where players defend a circle that appears randomly around a level; Knockout, where the object is to KO as many opponents as possible; and Last Man Standing, where gamers battle it out to see who is the toughest brawler of all. As gamers progress through TMNT™: Mutant Melee™, they’ll be able to unlock background information on the Turtles, character biographies, original TMNT™ comics, hilarious outtakes and enough artwork and video clips to satisfy even the most rabid Turtles enthusiasts."





-- Some of the newer TMNT variants have been poppin' up the past several days ..especially the Ninja Action Splinter,Shredder,Foot ..and the TMNT Easter Egg with the original Leo,2 mini TMNTs, Mini Ooze can, & stickers..slowly and surely..the new TMNT stuff is heading into stores as the we March on in April.. ahnd in there ,Turtle Troopers !!
It's been a ruff' year so far.. but better things abpund may make this your luckiest Turtle year yet !!
..>v<

-->>Note from tOkK:





The past several weeks i have been on overload. I can't pretend i don't have issues. In fact the more i pretend the less 'normal' i seem.

I post here the best i can updates about the newest TMNT stuff or intresting articles i hope you will enjoy. This page has the one of the lowest view counts. But still partly..i've made it my duty to keep on top of the latest stuff that i can.


My life isn't anyone else's problem really but my own. And my own battles and demons are mine.



But i owe so much to the people that love me and support me online. You guys get on terrible2z, Mikey's, Deviantart,emails and even the phone and the support and love is there. Yet sometimes i'm so lost in the fog of my mind to even see that.


..i crack alot. The weight of all this stuff i'm facing seems to just effect every tiny little corner of my days. Even here on Mikey's.


When i took this 'update' roll on ..i got a little better at it as time went on. Yes , i can't keep on top of 'it all' but i try.


Yesterday like alot of the other days i've been speeding thru' the past few years.. i stumbled again. Flat on my face and my words and my illness.


Ultimatly i hurt the guy that made this whole place happen. My best friend..and often my mentor. Odds are i prolly hurt alot of you.


Maybe i am dragging my tail between my legs. Maybe i am beating myself up. I think i deserve it.


I'll make my decisions on how things are gonna go down in a little while.


..in the mean time .. i owe everyone an apology ..you guys and especially Mikey. He can't possibly understand what i'm facing and he's got more than enough sh7t on his plate to figure it out. He shouldn't have to.


Still he's my friend. And it wouldn't matter what i owe to him or not. If it wasn't for him i wouldn't be here. If it wasn't for you all i wouldn't be here.


I know sometimes it's seems like i don't appreciate or read what you guys say. Ultimatly know i do. The past 5 + years of my life have been so incredible. And sometimes the biggest things and kindest things are the support you guys have given me.


I'm sorry i don't always see things.


You always hurt the ones you love. ..i seem to be the epidomy of that.


I make miatakes. But still i have to hold up to them and face them. Noone will ..noone can but me.


I'm sorry you guys.. and i'm sorry to Mikey..he really is the best friend anyone could have. And sometimes i let the negative things cloud that so bad that i hold our friendship in content. He's family .. to me.. as much as all of you are.And i don't deserve any of it.


Some big decisions are being made today and in the coming weeks. and i'm falling under the pressure of it all. I better get it together right now or i just won't make it huh.


again i'm sorry, guys.. i don't know what else to say.

..>v<