..stupid ideals..

Been quite a while since I put something up here huh? I meant to finish work early and go home straight to bed... And here I am, it's nearly 3 a.m. and I've just finished the website updating.

In case you didn't notice, I posted some good news the other day. I know several months ago I may have posted something about being the webmaster for the star. But let me explain. While I -- for a year -- carried the duties a webmaster would, I never acquired the schedule, pay or prestige that came with the title. I applied for the position and was interviewed. But after a few months of realizing that nothing was ever going to happen, I decided that I was going to resume basic updating of the site.... No maintenance, fancy ad building or lipstick and rouge extras.

A couple of weeks before my birthday, things started getting hellish in the newsroom. Schedules went awry, workloads increased, frustration with management and co-workers built and built and built....

But then something happened.

Around my birthday, someone stepped into my life. Well, I guess for the past three and a half years he'd been at least a foot in, but then he just popped in... wishing me a happy birthday and asking a funny question......

It had been a long time since the stupid grin on my face had been so wide.

He saw my profile online, but we were already acquainted. He had confirmation and then it took an incredible amount of courage to make the first move. And I'm so grateful that he did because from that point on, life's been getting better.

::knock on wood:: ;)

He's incredible. I just feel ..better.. when we're together. He gets me; I get him. We're just the right amount of alike, and the right amount of different. Movies, music, general interests...... hell, even combos at Whataburger... A real outlook.

We're not gonna make it work. We'll let it work.

See, I know this much... I owe him -- especially for this latest hurdle I've made it over.

Yeah, quite literally, he paved the way for me to this new position. But most of all, he had the balls to get it started in the first place. He gave me the courage and opportunity to take charge as well. And now. Here I am.

It's just after 3 a.m. and I wish I could just be there with him. Instead, I'll have to wait until tomorrow. And even though it'd be a great way to end the day.. the work week, we both know it's all right... There's no real need to worry about when or how we'll be together...... we'll just let it work out.

"Let me see all of the places I can be..."