Saturday, January 04, 2003 First, I'd like to thank all of you who replied to the last entry. I'm glad I've got so much support out there. ::hugs everyone:: Now then, I'd like to wish everyone a happy new year, although we are almost a week into it. Not only were the holidays hectic for me, but I was also battling a monster cold that incapacitated me for a good while. Just as I predicted, I got hit in the throat the hardest, so my voice is somewhat raspy. But it's much better than yesterday, and 200% better than the day before. I slept most of Thursday because I was running a pretty high fever. I ended up staying at my mom's house. What totally freaked me out... Thursday night at about midnight, my mom got me up off the couch, she made it up as a bed just like when I was little, she gave me some of my dad's pajamas to wear, and.... ::shocker:: she rubbed Vicks VapoRub on my chest!!! I mean, I was pretty out of it the whole time, I was just being all zombie-ish... But I knew what was going on. And she rubbed Vicks on my chest!! Nevermind the fur... she still treated me like I was 8-years-old! Anyway, I woke up from the fever around 3 am, and my sister was watching Ed Wood on TV. So I decided to watch that, and after it finished I went back to sleep... It wasn't very restful and I started getting that panicky delierium... you know when everything gets loud and scary.... yeah. Anyway, I managed to sleep and the next morning my mom told me to go sleep on her bed because she was expecting company. My aunt and her two kids showed up to use my sister's computer, then my other sister showed up, then my other aunt and her two kids showed up for a little visit before they took off on a weekend trip to Austin.The three younger cousins went outside to play and decided it was a good idea to play "Get the newspapers on the roof" ... they managed to find 5 newspapers from the neighbors' ... throw them on the roof, with the final fling ending in a broken window in my sister's room. ... So, after the smash, I couldn't sleep anymore and got up... When I went to greet everyone, I saw my sister was packing a bag too... So she decided to go with my aunt and her kids up to Austin. Later on that day, my dad took off to Louisianna with some friends, and by 6 pm, my mom and I were alone in the house. She didn't go to Louisianna with my dad because she was feeling sick. Well, I had to go to work, so my mom was all alone with the pets in the house.... After work, I went back to keep her company and she had gotten the cold full force. She had been reading all night and hearing scary noises all over the house... Heh heh... so I stayed the night with her. We started talking and talking and talking and talking, we ate at around 2:30 am... meatloaf... then talked and talked and talked some more... It was 8 am when we finally decided to get some sleep. But while she went to bed, I decided to watch cartoons on FOX. ;) She woke up at noon and I at 2:30, we went to eat at a Mexican Restaurant, went back home, then I came to work..... Heheh... Tomorrow we're going to church to hear Vanessa sing in the choir. Wow... I can't believe the quality time I'm spending with mom! :D Mikey was being stupid at 6:53 PM ::   ......... Sunday, December 29, 2002 I'm always chickening out of the opportunity to come out to my family. You know they know... they don't want to know for certain... but yet they are curious... there's fear from everyone's point of view. I can usually tell the direction a conversation is going to go from the very beginning. Mostly, I feel very comfortable with changing the subject before it reaches that point, very rarely do I regret it. But this is getting old... It really is. I mean, I've been out to my friends and anyone who asks since 98... It's now going to be 2003, and I still haven't let my most loved ones -- the ones who deserve it most -- know that I won't be marrying a girl, and there's no chance for the survival of the bloodline, being that I'm the last male on my dad's side. Last night the question came... from my mother no less. It happened over a stupid deck of cards -- a deck of Chalupa (Mexican Bingo) cards. Those unfamiliar with La Chalupa, it's a sort of picture bingo. There are a number of cards with certain pictures on them. When the card is called, you put a bean or a marker on the matching picture on your game card. Four in a row wins. One of the pictures is La Sirena... the mermaid. La Sirena is also known as "La Chichona" in our family... because well, she's got her breasts out for everyone to see. When we used to play the game in elementary school PE on rainy days, everyone got a kick out of the fact that the coaches had drawn bikini tops over the breasts with Sharpie. This memory sticks out in my head so clearly. So when my mom gave me her extra set of cards (There were some missing and she figured I could do something crafty with them), I started pulling out my favorite ones. Las Jaras, La Estrella, La Campana, La Mano, etc.... I took all the ones I loved when I was a kid, including La Sirena. MOM: Of course he would have to take La Chichona... ME: Well, that was a favorite of mine when I was little. MOM: I'm sure it was! ME: NO!! From PE in 4th grade! MOM: Whhaaattt??? ME: Noooo... SISTER: He means when they used to play this on rainy days. MOM: Ohh, I thought he meant he looked at girl's in the 4th grade...... ME: No, when we'd play Chalupa.... SISTER: Eeew... gross, Mother! MOM: Mikey.... Do enjoy looking at naked women? ME: !!!!!!! SISTER: Maaawwwwwwmmmm..... ME: MOM!! I am NOT going to talk to my mother about naked women... ::proceeds to fan face with chalupa game cards:: look you got me all embaressed. MOM: Well? ME: Why are you asking me things like this? MOM: You still haven't answered the question? ME: I'm not gonna!! SISTER: Well, *I* don't enjoy looking at naked men... because they're gross looking... but I still enjoy them.... MOM: And it's hard to believe... but amazingly there are men out there who like women with small boobs. SISTER: Like I know Michael doesn't like Boy chi-chis.... MOM: Huh? ME: Like Juliet Lewis' ... Then the conversation steered itself into a discussion about various breast shapes and sizes. My mom knew she never got her answer though, and I hope that gives her some clue as to what it would have been. Mikey was being stupid at 6:36 PM ::   ......... My throat's getting worse. My aunt gave me some penicillin to get rid of the infection, but it does nothing to calm the irritation. I ended up spending the night at my mom's again, and crashed pretty hard. I didn't hear anything going on in the house like I usually do. I slept till 1:30, and even now I'm still pretty drowsy. I really feel like shit. Today was a pretty warm day again, clear skies, high 70s... but REALLY windy. My mom went outside to get the newspaper this morning and the gate on the fence slammed on her finger. It got pretty bruised, but luckily wasn't broken. There's been palm fronds on all the roads and broken branches from the other trees. I let my sister borrow my car both yesterday and today because her's is on the brink of death. Why they insist on buyin American cars, I'll never understand... German's the way to go. Anyway, yesterday I was pissed because they were nowhere to be found when I needed to leave on my dinner break, so I didn't get to take one... and then they were at my aunt's house when I got out of work. My sister was coloring my aunt's hair, so they had to send my uncle to pick me up and take me there. We didn't leave till 1:30 in the morning, and by that time I was already too wiped to go all the way home. So I spent the night at my mom's. Bleh... I just don't feel good. I want to go home and get into bed. Mikey was being stupid at 5:07 PM ::   .........